12/8/2023 0 Comments Dark thoughts meaning![]() Vitamin B is necessary for energy production and metabolism. Also, get a physical that includes blood work tests for your vitamin B and vitamin D. It took several attempts for me to follow through and stick with it. If you havent already, you will reach a point where you are just fed up, and it will then be easier to make the necessary changes. Like keeping off psycoactive drugs, and being physically fit. There will be no reason to continually worry about developing schiz, or any other health problem if you are doing all that you can that is proven to counter such things. ![]() If you think that you are normal and making better choices then you are and you will. If you think you are crazy and stuck then you are and you are. Not everyone has the chance to reach that point by themself, though, and never be too proud to ask for help. Getting fit kick started a long list of good choices like eating right, jump starting old friendships, working on the marriage, etc. Ever since then (and after quiting smoking cigs as well) I have been on top of the world. So I dragged my hacking stoner ass to a gym kicking and screaming the whole way, and as gay as it sounds, started to attend a spinning (indoor cycling) class. It hit me that asside from the negative inner-thoughts, pot had negatively affected my career, finances, marriage, sex life, friendships, family, self respect, confidence, appearance, verbal and cognitive function, etc. I finally sort of stepped out of my body and looked at myself - took inventory of my life. I constantly was worried about my health, and like you, for good reason. I was in a rutt, depressed, paranoid, anxious, my mind went crazy with doomsday what-if's. ![]() You must know that it is easy to get caught in a rutt, and so you have to do what is hard and force yourself to be and do postive things that will distract you. It's normal to get down when someone dies, or something bad happens, but you must chose to deal with it in a healthy way. It took a long time to fess up to myself that I chose to be depressed by continuing to toke up. I chose to smoke weed for 13 years, and as a result it brought me down in almost every area of my life. How we react to difficult situations is a choice. A lot of people would disagree with that, but if we are being honest, depression is often the result of poor choices we have made. But don't get caught up in the what if's of depression, because depression more often than not is a choice. Thanks.ĭepression can/will indirectly lead to a long list of ailments and diseases in the long run. When I'm happy, it's really easy to ignore this whole ordeal, but it easily overcomes me when I'm down. I've just been going through a lot of anxiety and depression about this whole thing and I know that I should just forget about it but it's something that's hard to stop thinking about. I'm not afraid of the world ending, or have any big delusions like that. My grandfather was schizophrenic and the whole idea of going crazy is ruining my life. Even when I'm sober, usually when I'm not in the best mood these delusions (if you that's what they are) come up, and I know they're not real but they really get me down. When I would get high I would have these horrible delusions about myself: that i'm somehow inferior to everyone else, and that i've been this way my whole life but everyone is keeping it secret from me for some reason. The very smell of it, brings me into this reminds me of the nightmarish perspective. Started around freshman year, and smoking became a weekend ritual with me and my friends. Hi, I'm sixteen and I used to be a pretty big smoker.
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